I meant for this blog to be about my job and I find my life creeping in bit by bit. I think they're becoming inextricable from each other. I take my work home with me and I bring my personal life to school. I talk about personal things with my colleagues and they've met my boyfriend and some have seen my apartment. Do work and home life get this blended for everyone?
I love teaching. I enjoy the curriculum I use and the spontaneity of working with kids. They really do say some of the strangest things. And do some of the strangest things. I had one walk straight into our door without turning the handle because he "forgot the door had a handle!" It can be exhausting and painful when I feel like I'm talking to wall all day and my students don't listen, and it's worse when I have students who don't understand no matter how hard they try. I take everything personally and I've noticed that is true of other teachers as well. Every triumph is ours, as well as every failure. Logically this isn't possible. If a child doesn't study and fails a test, that is on them. Though I know this, I find myself prompting them through the questions because I can't bear the thought of their disappointment. I'm slowly becoming tougher but everything still hits close to home.
With my internship, there was a work me and a home me. Now that this is my career, now that I work with children, I don't know how to separate. How much of myself should I put in to my work?
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